My wOrdS

"How can I pretend to be so strong..."
"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you've never met..."
"Eternity lives where my heart truly belongs.."
"I'm not that strong........ I'm just trying my best not to break down......."

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I'm Living alone in my black and white world... full of darkness.. pain... colorless.. lifeless.. lonely little world.. full of imaginary friends.. and creatures! ( correction: I'm not crazy*) I create a world of my own. My own wonderland (or dreamland.. whatever you call that.) Waiting for that someone (whoever that is) to make my world colorful and bright.. full of light and happiness. BEAST(B2ST) came then guess what? They painted my world with different colors (bright and with life.) They put designs and marks (*marks that wouldn't easily be removed by anything.) That really made me smile.. for the first time.. my heart was filled with joy and happiness. I really don't know what to do or say. Speechless -- * .. from then on.. I woke up from the nightmare I'm having. Lived in reality--Happily.

Friends VS. Best Friends



FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”
FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “Seven days…” !
FRIENDS: Helps you up when you fall.
BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”
FRIENDS: Helps you find your prince.
BEST FRIENDS: Kidnaps him and brings him to you.
FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.
BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”
FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.
BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.
FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool withyou at that time of the month.
BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.
FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.
BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run - beep - run!”
FRIENDS: Will help you move.
BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.
FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”
FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIENDS: Helps themselves and are the reason why you have no food.
FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!
FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you sayin “DAMN!” we messed up!
FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.
FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.
BEST FRIENDS: Has you on speed dial.
FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”
FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…
FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you
FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”
FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.
FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)
BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.
FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.
BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!
FRIENDS: when visiting, acts like a guest.
BEST FRIENDS: opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
 @strawberrytelle

Learning another Language

Who wants to learn another language? ME!!
XD

still studying korean but I want to learn how to speak in spanish too~ haha
I'll be taking french class this coming june.. for my elective subject.. ><
I hope words, pronunciation and meaning wont go crazy inside my head.. haha!! or else..
huh? *rumble rumble rumble* ah!^_^ ... * rumble rumble rumble* >__< har~


hwaiting jen! haha!!

hmm... I want to learn japanese, chinese, greek~~
woah.. how many languages do I want to learn? I really dont know.. XD so much more!
oh! oh! Latin too!! XD

I need DETERMINATION.. and INSPIRATION!! XD haha!!!!

100 TRUTHS

NAME: Peng
AGE : 19
BIRTHDATE: Jan 10 1992
PRESENT ADDRESS: Cavite

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: h2O

2. Last phone call: dadi.. XD

3. Last text message:Marion L.

4. Last song you listened to: Because of You by BEAST/B2ST

5. Last time you cried: cant remember

6. Got back with someone you've broken up with: No

7. Been cheated on: juu said she's going to treat me takoyaki

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No.

9. Lost someone special: ...

10. Been depressed:YES.

11. Been drunk and threw up: No

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Violet
13. Red
14. Orange

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2011)

15. Made a new friend: Yes

16. Fallen out of love: No

17. Laughed until you cried: Yes

18. Met someone who changed you: Yes :)

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes!

20. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah.. many actually...

21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list: ...

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 80% i guess.. XD

23. How many kids do you want? 2? son and daughter

24. Do you have any pets:  1.. mini pinscher

25. Do you want to change your name: No

26. What did you do for your last birthday:Mall hopping with  my dad

27. What time did you wake up? 10am.. earliest every weekends and summer

28. What were you doing at midnight last night? listening to B2ST songs and watching B2ST Videos on youtube.. all about B2ST.. XD

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for? B2STs  albums and poster.. and shirts.. and stuff

30. Last time you saw your Mother: 6 hours ago

32. What are you listening to right now: Bad Girl by B2ST

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No

34. Who is getting on your nerves now?...

35. Most visited webpage:B2strising.com , facebook, youtube, tumblr, TWITTER, blogspot

36.Whats your real name: Jenina Arvin

37. Nicknames: Jen, jam, peng, nina, ninay, arvin, buninay

38. Relationship Status: Single

39. Zodiac sign: Capricorn

40. Male or female? Female

41. Primary School?: BSC

42. High School?: SBCA

43. College?: MDC

44. Hair color: Black

45. Long or short: long

46. Height: 5'1 -__-

47. Do you have a crush on someone? :) Yes - YYS

48: What do you like about yourself? I always think positive things

49. Piercings: Ear piercings

50: Tattoos: None, hoping to get 1 though.. but my mom wont let me

51. Righty or lefty:  Righty


FIRST:

52. First surgery: none

53. First piercing: 1 y/o

54. First best friend: Erica R.

55. First sport you joined: hockey~ XD

56. First vacation: my first real vacation? when I was 10 or 11 y/o - trip to HK

57. First pair of trainers: huh?

RIGHT NOW:

58. Eating:Marshmallow

59. Drinking: Water

60. I'm about to: watch APINK - I dont know MV

61. Listening to: OASIS!!! by B2ST

62. Waiting for:12nn - LUNCH!

63. I'm feeling: I really dont know what I feel.. XD

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? Yes :)

65. Get married?:  YES <3

66. Career: Nurse, then I want to be a patissier

67. Lips or eyes: Eyes... *-*

68. Hugs or kisses: BOTH from YYS

69. Shorter or taller: Taller

70. Older or Younger: older

71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: YYS's stomach and arms are fine... XD

73. Sensitive or loud: both haha!

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship

75. Kissed a stranger: No

76. Drank hard liquor: No

77. Lost glasses/contacts: i dont wear glasses and contacts

78. Sex on first date: No. THE HELL..

79. Broken someone's heart:har~ YES

80. Been arrested: Not yet.. not on my plan.. XD

81. Turned someone down: Yes

82. Cried when someone died: Yes

83. Fallen for a friend: Yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: yes.. sometimes no..

85. Love at first sight: YES

86. Heaven: Yes

87. Santa Claus: No

88. Kiss on the first date:No

89. Angels: Yes

90. God: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

91. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No

92. Did you sing today? Yes.. B2ST's songs

93. Ever cheated on somebody?:what kind? XD

94. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?:100 YEARS..

95. The moment you would choose to relive?: family trip in HK..

96. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yeah

97. When was the last time you lied?: 2 hrs ago.. XD haha!!

98. Are you usually late, early or right on time?: early

99. Are you a good person?:I really dont know.. haha~ you judge..

100. What's the most horrible thing you've ever done? nothing I guess.. XD

So hard to lose weight

I started my 77 DAYS of "Reducing diet" with exercise 3 weeks ago.. and I only lose 5 lbs.. T_T
not successful enough.. XD
1st week= SUCCESS!
2nd week = failllllllllllllllllllllll~ T_T i caught cough and cold.. that lasts for almost 2 weeks.. boohoo!!!!!!!!!!! = gained weight AGAIN!

I really need to lose weight.. T_T
my-suppose-to-be-diet is resumed as well as my daily exercise.. 
hope I  can lose 20-30lbs within 57 days!!!

Hwaiting for ME! :)

[twitter] Yongpiness

HAHA!
maybe..he's jumping or dancing like crazy right now..
his IDEAL girl is replying to him.. XD
yong is flirting.. boohoo!
reply to my tweets too! :))
if one day.. only "IF"...  you reply to 1 of my tweets.. 
HELL.. I'll be on cloud nine!

Whisper

What the HELL is wrong with some people out there..
buzzing like a BEE.. always buzzing.. whispering to each other..
They can talk normally because I dont really care if they're talking about me.
They could shout if they want to.. just.. dont whisper..!!
I feel like hell when they talk like that..

Psych exposure

Okay..
I will just summarize my(our) experiences @ psych ward..

on the 1st day, of course we are all dead nervous of what are we going to do.. how we are going to handle the patients.. how are we going to react.. are there words we're not allowed to use..
..we are full of WHAT IFs..
but all of our questions were answered when we get to know them..
everyday, we prepared games for them.. after each game, we asked each one of them what they learned. For the first few days of duty.. they're not that cooperative..we're on the getting-to-know-each-other state..but as they day passed by.. it's like we've known each other for years.
We had jamming sessions.. we sung songs together.. lots of songs.. english, tagalog, japanese, chinese, korean.. haha! us students we're shocked because some of them know how to speak different languages.
At the end of each day, we wrote in out journal what we learned and experienced.. it's like our diary.
really, i wrote a lot.. haha that's a first time for me.. XD
On our last day, our GRAND SOCIALIZATION DAY, we played games, sessions(with sir alo), oh! and we prepared loooooooooooots of food.. XD
The day ended well.. it was fun.. meeting them and all.. i thought of visiting them again.. we just dont know when.. maybe after all out problems in school are solved.. haha! especially the revision for out never-ending-thesis.. >< after that.. we're going to pay them a visit..hopefully..