Color my WORLD..: October 2010

My wOrdS

"How can I pretend to be so strong..."
"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you've never met..."
"Eternity lives where my heart truly belongs.."
"I'm not that strong........ I'm just trying my best not to break down......."

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I'm Living alone in my black and white world... full of darkness.. pain... colorless.. lifeless.. lonely little world.. full of imaginary friends.. and creatures! ( correction: I'm not crazy*) I create a world of my own. My own wonderland (or dreamland.. whatever you call that.) Waiting for that someone (whoever that is) to make my world colorful and bright.. full of light and happiness. BEAST(B2ST) came then guess what? They painted my world with different colors (bright and with life.) They put designs and marks (*marks that wouldn't easily be removed by anything.) That really made me smile.. for the first time.. my heart was filled with joy and happiness. I really don't know what to do or say. Speechless -- * .. from then on.. I woke up from the nightmare I'm having. Lived in reality--Happily.

too early---

I had a weird dream.. haha

i want to sleep more!!! -_-

still sleepy....................

hmm...

maybe i'll just do some exercise.. :D

or write stories...

or listen to music?...

eat breakfast?.. :))

ugghhh~ what to do? what to do?

Vacation, beauty of nature

Spi-yay-der .. ahaha~ Spider.

my momi and dadi.. (that's how i spell it.. mommy and daddy is too common.. haha).

the boys in front of us are my cousins..

so peaceful.. right?

i love the sky.. sooo blue...

the clouds are beautiful....

i wish i have time to relax

and breathe in some fresh air..

My bro...... is fat.. :))

everyday scenario...

people here are very hard working..

PIG!!

we're going to where the depressed ducks are.. haha

they are over 600..... XD

@San antonio kalayaan laguna

october 25, 2010

Chevrolet cars~

I just wanna share pics..

WOW... 2010 CAMARRO... (dadi.. can i have one? plss..? XD haha! in my dreams)

i want to have my own race car someday!!.. :D

@ Mall of asia | october 22, 2010 | friday

Please dont lie

Note: I didn't edit the original text..

Credits

Author: Lollipopluv

-Tittle-

· · · P L E A S E D O N T L I E T O M E · · ·

-Characters-

SuMin, HyunSeung, GiKwang, JunSeung, YoSeob, DuJun, DongWoon, RiRa, BoRang, ChyuHye, InNa, and NaRaLi

-Chapters-

?Lie One ?Lie One (cont.) ?Lie Two ?Lie Three ?Lie Four ?Lie Five ? ? ? ? ?

Lie One

안 녕~I am your ordinary person. I have the best life. Everyday I wake up to the sound of birds singing outside my window and the light shining brightly. The clouds are white and puffy. Everyone is nice to me. I am the person to tell the truth all the time.

Is that what you wanted to read...? Well, it's not my story...not my life...

My family is gone...they all live back in the United States. While I was left here...I asked to and they let me...I am 20 years old right now and finished school with and exceeding GPA...but..do you believe me? Believe or not...but I am actually telling the truth...but...really...I want people to believe me....I want to be understood...to fit in...to find...love....

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June 1st; 11am

"SuMin! Let's go for a walk today." NaRaLi said. She came and made me stand up from where I was sitting in front of my TV.

"....*sigh*...alright..." I went to my room and changed into a skirt and a short-sleeved t-shirt. I put on my Dunks and left out with NaRaLi. We walked around joking and laughing.

"Hey, I have to tell you one thing before we get farther." she said. We were about to reach a cafe and I wanted some coffee...

"Alright. What?" I asked.

"You see those boys?" she pointed to the boys inside the cafe drinking coffee.

"Yea why?"

"They are cute right?" she asked with a smile on her face.

"eh....not really..." i lied on that part...I thought the guy with the deer eyes looked so cute...

"haha lies you're totally eye-ing the guy with the eyes.." i wonder if she saw through me..

"eh?....yea...."

"hahah!!" she started to laugh, "I finally got the truth out of you..."

"Ok..so what are we doing here?" I asked, "I want some coffee....hurry and tell me..."

"Those 6 guys are the worlds most popular boys...and YOU get to meet them along with our other friends....lucky us huh?"

"Other friends...as in... RiRa, BoRang, ChyuHye, and InNa?"

"Well duh...who else?" she laughed.

"Well where are they?"

"They are coming. I wanted us to be the first ones..."

"Let's just go in...I want some coffee..." I walked towards the entrance and their eyes darted at me and they smiled so cutely...I wonder what they were staring at...I entered the cafe with their eyes still following me. I ignored them and went to order coffee at the counter. When my order was ready, I looked at the coffee first...it looked so pretty...they had put a flower shaped sugar in there...I didn't want to mess it up..but I wanted to drink coffee so I stirred up the coffee and drank slowly and enjoyed the taste...

"Hey!" one of the guys called to me making me jump.

"W...what?" I asked and turned around to see NaRaLi and my other friends talking to the guys.

"Come here~" NaRaLi gestured her hand for me to come. I did as told and put my coffee down. I walked over hesitantly.

"Hey." I said and smiled.

"Hey, I am DuJun called the leader of the group." I bowed as they all introduced themselves..the last one to be introduced...was...the deer eyed....

"I am HyunSeung. The beautiful guy? haha Nah just call me HyunSeung." he smiled and shook my hair. I fixed it and bowed...

"...I...I am SuMin...." I said breathlessly. HyunSeung was...really...my type...

We sat down and joked. I sat there silently but i tried to be included in the fun. HyunSeung, GiKwang, and JunHyung seemed to be...like...a love triangle...but...NO!!!!! What am I thinking....

"uh......" i was sweaty and forced a smile, "s-so...uhh....are you three...."

"hahahah!!!!!" they started laughing so hard they almost cried.

"Everyone thinks that. The original couple is JunSeung, me and JunHyung, but they paired me with GiKwang and so now i am between them two. BUT!...no we are all straight not curvy haha. It's just for the fans' fantasy worlds."

"ah...I see...sorry hahaha" I said shyly. I bowed and JunHyung just helled my shoulder so I wouldn't be able to...

"It's ok haha" GiKwang said and smiled.

"Yah~ what were you thinking haha" NaRaLi and InNa laughed.

"Hey! I was...ehehe" I couldn't finish, I was so embarrassed.

"Let's Switch numbers before we leave shall we?" DuJun said and they came closer to me. I was scared for a second.

"O-ok...My number is...." I gave DuJun my number first since he wouldn't get out of my bubble space....

"Wait!!! I am going first!!!" YoSeob yelled.

"Hahaha Nope I got it first!" DuJun smirked and walked to the other girls smiling at me....What in the world...

I gave the rest of the members my number and all that was left was HyunSeung.

"Here.." he said and we transfered each other's numbers to each other, "Call me...Sometime?"

"S-sure." I smiled.

"See Ya."

"Bye bye..." I waved as he and the others left. BoRang and the others left first and left me to walk home alone. I sighed....They always do this to me... I waved even though everyone had left me. I turned around slowly...and took an unsteady breath...I don't know why..but I felt like I was going to cry...I took another breath but this time harder. I tucked my phone in my pocket tightly and I stretched. People around looked at me weird. I shook it off and I ran off as fast as I could go. In less than 3 minutes I was in my bed and asleep.

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June 2nd; 5am

My eyes burst open to find the red and orange light and burns of fire...Is this a dream?...I heard sirens....and a person..laughing....

"Who..Who's there??" I asked. I got up from my bed and dressed quickly...I walked around my house..avoiding the fire...I began coughing...I found my way to the door...there was fire covering my way....There it was again..the laugh...

"WHO ARE YOU??" I yelled. The fire burst into my face but just luckily I covered it and burned my arm slightly...I got a cut on my face from the falling wood..I began to panic...Don't panic...I told myself...but i couldn't help it....

"SOMEONE!!! HELP ME!!!!!!!" I yelled..but no one heard me....the sirens got closer...and the laugh stopped and i heard the person running away....

"Wait!! Come back!!" I yelled..I slowly lost air.....I began coughing more furiously... I looked around...my window...I took all my strength I had left and ran towards the window hard and I crashed through it. The glass cutting my arms slightly as I passed. I saw the people below...the ambulance brought something for me to land on....but....my mind...went blank...and everything went black....

3pm

I jumped up suddenly and I was in a different place...I looked around...and saw police men...and a lot of people surrounding me....

"w..where am I?" I asked and curled up, my knees to my chest. I was...scared....

"Don't worry...You're somewhere safe...the hospital actually..." a police girl said quietly to me, "We...we are trying to figure out who set that fire...Don't worry. You'll be alright.."

"...th..Thank you..." was all I could say. The lady smiled at me and sat down. The doctors and nurses came in and gave me ointment for my arms and my face...

"Your cuts from the glass isn't severe...but you could've bled to death if you stayed in there any longer." The doctor explained, "These cuts will disappear by tomorrow. So, If you want to wait you can stay here 'till then."

"...I..I will..." i couldn't let others see me like this...they'd think I was crazy..."Is any of this on the news?"

"No ma'am." The lady officer said.

"..That's good.."

"Do You have a place to go to when you leave tomorrow?" One of the men officers asked me.

I was thinking...Did I have a place to go?...."Y-.....yes..." I lied....

"Ok, good." he left the room with his notepad as he was writing down what I said.

"Why is everyone so serious about this...wasn't it just a fire?" i was confused.

"It's because you are being targeted by someone...." the lady officer said.

"..who..who would want to kill me?"

"Do you know anyone who looks at you weird....or just seems to not talk to you?"

"....there is....ChyuHye...but that's all....but don't suspect her! She's a good friend." I didn't want anyone else to get involved in this.

"I am sorry...but we have to figure this out.."

"....and..."

"and?"

"While I was in the fire...I heard someone laughing...a female laugh...it was a scary laugh...but then as you all came closer her laughing stopped and she ran away..." I said quietly....remembering the laugh was too scary.

"Thanks...We'll catch up on that..Well, than we are going. Take care. And doctor don't let any of her friends come visit her. Have a nurse be her daily friend until she gets out of the hospital.."

"No. It's ok. I will be able to leave tomorrow anyway so it's ok." I smiled and the officer believed me.

"Alright. We will be around but not interfering with your life. Alright?"

"Ok. Thanks again. Bye." i said to them as they left.

Lie Two

I was released from the hospital when I woke up. They had someone the other night buy the clothes that I had in my closet somewhere...I was surprised that they got it all...They gave it to me and was on my way. I was glad to get out of there...the whole night I was so lonely...it was scary..Maybe i should have gotten a nurse to stay with me...Now here i was...wandering around Seoul..

"I have no where to go.." i said quietly to myself...I looked in my phone for numbers of people who would let me stay...none...not even NaRaLi or BoRam the nicest two of my friends would let me stay.....*sigh*

Then..his number was there..Jang HyunSeung...it said...I was thinking..should I call him...or should I not...

"ok...let's do this on accident...." I told myself. I looked around and saw a tree. I pointed my phone at it pretending to take a picture and pressed call, "OhNO!!!" i called....on "accident"...way to go SuMin..

"Hello?" he said...

"umm...uh...."

"SuMin? Hey. What is it?" he sounded like he was so happy.

"...umm...I....." i didn't know how to put it...

"Why don't I come to you- -"

"NO! ...I..."

"Something is wrong..I know it..."

"No...there isn't.."

"Please...Don't lie to me..." and that's when it started...

"I...Don't have anywhere to go..."

"What? What happened?"

"Someone...burned my house down.."

"By who?"

"...I...i dont know...i hope no one close to me..." I whispered the last part away from the phone.

We were silent for a while...

"But It's ok- - "

"Stay with me and the guys.." he interrupted me..

"....c...could I - -"

"Sure. The guys won't mind. Trust me."

"Ok...But..I'll walk there. It's too much of a trouble for you to come get me...where do you live?"

"The apartment in town next to the water fountain park."

"OK I'll be there.." they live in such a luxurious place...only rich people lived there..."Wait for me.."

"I will"

"Bye.." I hung up and started walking..

I was really really lucky... As I walked around I got confused for a bit. There were two fountains...which one was it?...I looked around and found a bunch of boys outside one HUGE apartment...ok..that's the one...So I slowly walked ... I was scared...and nervous..and embarrassed...to ask someone to live with them...oh well...I was already here...I looked towards the fountain....something...sparkled...I walked a bit more to go to them.

"HEY!" they screamed and tried to hug me but I budged away putting my things down...I kept my eyes on that sparkle...

"Eh?" they said their eyes followed me as I walked closer towards the fountain and to the sparkle. I bent down...and picked it up...how pretty...it was a locket...a diamond one....not shaped like a heart...but a crown...I put it in the water to wash the dirt off of it and when i took it out it shined even brighter. I smiled. I never had anything like this in my entire life. So, I kept it. I put it around my neck and walked back to them

"What was that?" they asked.

"I found this." I said brightly.

When I entered their apartment room....I was so amazed...No wonder these apartment were so huge. There were so many rooms....

"so..Do you guys have your own room?" I said while still looking around the house.

"No. We dont want to stay in our own rooms. We like to use one for us all. So we have a lot of extra rooms." DongWoon said.

"wow....." I looked into the other rooms, "Which one...should i choose? I asked.

"Choose one to your liking." HyunSeung said. I turned around and he was right behind me.

"AH!....oh my gosh...you scared me." I swear that I jumped up 10 feet into the air. He laughed at me. I stared at him with a funny glare and walked off. I looked around some more...I counted and in all there are 7 rooms extra...I narrowed it down to the best one that fits my personality....I walked from one to the other...now there was two left....I looked at the first one....no...then the second...

"THIS ONE!!!!!" I yelled as I ran into the room and out to the balcony. I was...laughing and smiling....it..was a miracle. This room...was really me...It was the color green...the floor was soft, the ceiling was painted to have a sky..and clouds. Everything...it was...like a dream. I pinched my cheek.

"OW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed so loud but didn't let go. They came running to the room. YoSeob too my hand from my face.

"What are you doing?" he rubbed the spot where I pinched myself. I was taken aback...I paused...what was he doing...does he...like me...no haha what am I thinking no one's liked me before.

"Uhh..i was..just trying to figure out if this was a dream or not." I walked away from his hand and got my things from the ground.. They left the room and I put all my things in the way i wanted it.

*buzz* I got a text message....I opened up my phone. It was an unknown number. I read the message:

'I will find you...

and...you won't live...'

I dropped my phone...the others came to my room....I dropped to my knees...

".....who...would want me to die....what..did I do wrong?" i said unconsciously...

"What's wrong?" GiKwang asked but...I didn't answer...I just kept looking at my phone...the message was still there...haunting me...

HyunSeung picked up my phone...my eyes still wide open..

"who...." he repeated...he was so mad...he threw my phone to the wall...my phone broke....

"....someone...wants...to kill me...." I looked at them...and they looked back...I was so scared...I cried....HyunSeung too me in his arms...

YOSEOB && DUJUN POV

When HyunSeung took SuMin in his arms...I was so angry.....why?...

Lie Three

June 4th; 11am

I woke up having a headache...yesterday was so ... bizarre. I just didn't understand anything....and when HyunSeung hugged me I was almost knocked out. What is wrong with me...Too much stress maybe.

"Good Morning~" I said after I had washed up.

"Good Morning!!" YoSeob said and ran to hug me.

"YoSe- -uh...what's for breakfast?" DuJun yelled. He looked angry...but I felt awkward in this position so I struggled away.

"Something good!" JunHyung yelled back. It was so awkward...so I just sat down on the couch. I was surprised that my feet could reach the floor..maybe i got taller.

"SuMin~~" DuJun said in aegyo and put the back of his head on my lap...he lay there smiling at me...

"uh...D--DuJun...."

"What do you like??" he said.

"I don't like a lot of things..."

"Like what?" YoSeob nearly barked...what is wrong with these guys...

"uh..like Pizza...chocolate, cake, and there is a lot of other things." I noticed I was playing with DuJun's hair and HyunSeung came out of his room. When he saw me doing that he walked to me and pulled me up leaving DuJun's head smacked to the floor.

"H-hey! That hurt!!" DuJun yelled.

"It's what you get." HyunSeung stuck out his tongue and walked away leaving me to stand. I don't get what is up with these guys...are they always like this? YoSeob took my hand.

"Let's go for a walk!" he said.

"No...I think it's safer for me if I stay here...Sorry" I said and took my hand away. He looked like he just remembered what happened last night.

"Oh yea! hehe Sorry."

"Duh YoSeobii!" GiKwang yelled and wrestled with YoSeob nearly knocking out the blonde boy. DongWoon came from outside of the apartment and went to his room then came back. Carrying a letter.

"Who's that from?" JunHyung asked.

"I don't know but it's to me." DongWoon opened the letter, "Ah...fan letter."

"Oh read it then come for breakfast." JunHyung yelled.

"And another thing...I don't eat breakfast so...I think I will go explore the apartment a little more." Smiling I went back to my room and changed into some decent clothes. When I came back out DuJun and YoSeob was outside my door asking me to let me take one of them so that I will understand the place better.

"uh..how...about I choose one of you?" I said and went out into the living room. They followed, "Do rock paper scissors one time." As they did it their eyes were glaring at each other. When their hands came down I knew...

"I WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" DuJun yelled and pushed YoSeob. DuJun dragged me out the door and here we are..exploring.

YoSeob POV

Da-- that guy....I get the feeling he likes her as well...I almost punched the wall from defeat but good thing GiKwang was in the way. I ended up hitting his chocolate abs and he started laughing.

"What the...never mind..." Staring at him weird I walked to the kitchen to fin HyunSeung sleeping on the table. I went to him and tried to wake him up.

"Stop..." he whined, "Rancho tired..." I loved the fact that he was talking in third person when he was sleeping it was so funny. So, I sat there watching him sleep. Hey, there was nothing else to do. HyunSeung started to mumble words. I listened closer and I figured out what he was saying.

"Da-- you DuJun..." was what he said. Wait...No way...he like SuMin too... He's another obstacle for me...

SuMin POV

As we were walking I felt at peace for some reason. It wasn't a feeling you get everyday. I saw stairs going up in a spiral. I tugged on DuJun's shirt.

"Where do those lead to?" I was so curious.

"Those? They lead to HyunSeung's room."

"Really...so his room is up there??"

"Yep. He likes to call it his room. No one else is allowed to go up there but him. Don't ask why. We don't know." DuJun walked ahead..So he's like a lone cat...

"Hey...DuJun..Can I ask a question?"

"Sure go ahead."

"Are you guys always like this?"

"Like what?"

"...PLayfull...and angry sometimes at each other?"

"Oh no...we get along too well to be angry at one another...but..I think there is an obstacle that is with us right now...I think that obstacle..will separate certain people..." DuJun's smile faded as he stared at me in the eye....Was...was the obstacle...me?

"Who is the obstacle.."

"I can't tell you..If I do...it will be meaningless." He walked again and I followed. What is the obstacle?

Lie Four

June 7th; 10am

It's been a few days now since I had stayed with the boys here. It's been fun. At the same time...HyunSeung, DuJun, and YoSeob tend to fight a lot when one person is around me...Are they fighting over me....? I was outside of the apartment and walked around. I stopped by HyunSeung's "Room" for the first time I had been here...I didn't exactly go in...I was just at the stairs. I sat down on the last step. I wonder..If he's up there...I haven't seen him today. I rested my head on the railing....

"Hey!" I hear HyunSeung yell in my ear. I jerked up and off the seat. I turned to see him.

"uh...I uh..Sorry!" I ran away but his hand caught my arm.

"D..Do you ...want to come up?" he asked....he...would let ME go up there? I nodded and he led me up the stairs. He opened the door to this room of his....It was...colorful...and there was music playing...a sad piano song...I walked in and walked in around from corner to corner slowly. I looked at all the paintings and drawings hung up.

"Did you draw these?" I asked. He paused.

"I did..." he said and took one down from the wall. It was in a frame the only one in a frame.

"What is this one?" I looked at it...It sorta...looked like me...

"I..It's you...I painted it while you were on your balcony yesterday." he was blushing...is this...why I liked him so much....he was so gentle...and kind...he even paints!...I couldn't really say anything at the time...I sorta just admired the painting...

"Am I the only one who ever came here?" I was just wishing that i would be the first..

"..yes..." I blushed and gave him back the painting. I walked out and back to my room. He couldn't possibly like me...I looked at myself in the mirror. What is it about me...I wonder.

I must have fallen asleep. I was on my bed and it was almost dark outside. I got up and walked to the living room. I didn't see anyone but DuJun. I rubbed my eyes.

"Where are the others?" I asked and yawned.

"They went out to get some things." he patted the seat on the couch next to him, "Come sit." I came over and we watched TV for a while. Then he turned it off and turned to me.

"hmm.....What is your favorite color?"

"It's green..." you'd think he notice that by now. All my clothes are almost green.

"...Who...who do you like?" he asked with sincere eyes...Did i really have to answer that...I stayed quiet for a while. He then grabbed my hands.

"Why. Why does it have to be HyunSeung." he knew it all along....

".....i...i" I pulled my hands away. His eyes were full of fire....,"DuJun...are ..are you okay...?"

I turned my body and sat criss-cross on the couch and looked at him in the eye. He was scary.....I didn't know what to do...I just sat there.

"DuJun I- -" he was kissing me.....it was so wrong......his hand went to the back of my head and pulled me closer....so wrong.... I tried pulling away. I managed to get up and freed myself from his kiss. I had tears coming from my eyes. They flowed fast from the many many tears filled in my eyes.

"I can take better care of you. Believe me." he walked closer to me. I backed up slowly. He came closer and closer. I then fell onto the couch behind me...all I could do was cry....I was so helpless...He then kissed me again...i tried to get away but he pined me to the couch....

"Please stop!!" i yelled...

"I will make you love me.....I am crazy about you...can't you see?" he kissed me again but this time more rough..i wanted him to stop. I got my hands free and started push at him.

"what are you two doing..." i heard YoSeob say as he dropped his bags from the store. All he saw then was DuJun pulling away from me and me crying....I wiped my lips and got up...

"DuJun...he...." I was so shocked i just stood there...i couldn't run...my feet were numb...HyunSeung came from behind...

"What's going on?" he said blankly...YoSeob ran to DuJun and punched him hard...It then snapped to me...I..I was the OBSTACLE.... I ran to them and tried pulling them away from each other.

"You dirty man!" YoSeob yelled at DuJun. I had my hands around his waist and tried to stop him...I didn't want to come between them....

"Why must you force yourself onto her? I accepted...I ACCEPTED THE FACT THAT I CAN'T GET HER!! IN HER EYES SHE ONLY SEES HIM!! DuJun hyung....no...Yoon DuJun. You are lucky tonight...." he removed my arms from him and punched the wall this time...making a huge hole.....I turned to DuJun...Pleading him to just apologize to me and it'll be alright...YoSeob came back and took me into a hug.

"Don't be so forgiving to a being like him...." As he let me go HyunSeung came to me....I stared at the floor. I was so ashamed...DuJun took my first kiss.....I was saving it for the right guy...I was so sure it would be for HyunSeung...but...he took it....I wiped my tears away...HyunSeung touched my lips with his thumb...he rubbed his hand over my head...and then hugged me...I saw him...his glare....it was set upon DuJun....Why has It come to this....If I wasn't here... then none of this would be happening... I pulled away and ran to my room. I locked the door and went under my covers...I am so sorry....

June 8th; 1am

I was...packing... I packed little...I was going to run away..If i stay here for too long I will cause more trouble I waited till they all fell asleep. I said goodbye silently to this place that has had room for me. I turned and left out the door. I was at the fountain now...the lights outside were always on...and everything was so beautiful..I touched the necklace I found here...I took it off...and put it on the cement of the fountain..

"..Goodbye...Sorry...HyunSeung..DuJun..YoSeob..." I ran away...in the wet rain that fell as tears mixed with my own...

Lie Five

June 13th; 10am

I've been at this hotel for about a few days now..I wonder how they are doing without me...better? I hope so...

Maybe i don't want to be found. Maybe I want help. Maybe I want to disappear...or..Maybe...I love HyunSeung too much...

"I guess you call this silent love..." I whispered to myself. *knock knock* I went to go open the door.

"Ma'am. There are a few men outside....wondering where you are. What should I tell them?"

"uh...Does one man have deer eyes?"

"Yes." oh no....

"Tell them that there is no one here by the name SuMin. Ok?"

"...Y..yes ma'am." and off she went. I closed the door and ran to grab what little I had already. I packed them back into my suitcase and climbed out the window...good thing I was on the first floor. I ran as fast as I could but sneakily. I turned around and saw them coming out of the hotel. I turned the corner on my right and sat there. This is too hectic...

"SuMin?" I looked up..and saw ChyuHye..I was scared...I forgot that there was someone who wanted to kill me....I got up and left quickly.

"SuMin?? Where are you going?" ChyuHye said and grabbed my arm, "What's going on?"

"...nothing..but I have to go now..Sorry. Bye ChyuHye." I ran farther. I know I was mean...but...I was scared...what if she was the one who tried to kill me....no..dont even think that SuMin.

As I got farther, I started to walk again. Where do I go now...HyunSeung and the others can find me anywhere. I was next to...the fountain....and their apartment...[i]why am I back here...[/i]

I skimmed around for my necklace...It wasn't here anymore.

"Where did she go off to..." I heard voices...HyunSeung's...YoSeob's...and DuJun's.....I got a piece of paper out and wrote I am sorry but please stop trying to find me..it's no use..Bye.. I put it under a rock on the fountain and ran quietly away before they turned the corner. I hid behind a bush...I just couldn't help but stay...I miss them...DuJun...just so you know...I forgave you the moment I left.... I wish I could tell him that...

They picked up the letter and looked around...alert faces.

"SUMIN!!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!!!" I got up an ran for it. When I was far enough I rested again...Maybe hiding was too hard or..maybe...I don't want to hide...What's up with all the maybes...I shoved the thoughts away and kept walking. NaRaLi. I could trust her. I ran all the way to her apartment and knocked on her door.

"SuMin! Where have you been? I have been trying to look for you." She said and just stood in the door way...usually...she would hug me...

"Why were you trying to find me...." The text message memory came back to me.

"....B..because you were gone for a while is all...why?" she smiled and then hugged me, "Come inside." I followed her in...I reached for my new phone...where..it's not here...

"Umm...I will be back. I dropped something on my way here. Keep the door unlocked for me ok?" I ran away to where I was at the fountain. I searched around..where is it...It was a Samsung...green...but..oh....where is it? Oh! When I left...I heard some thing splash...I looked into the fountain and there it was! I got it out and dried it...good thing it was water proof. I opened it up just in case it wouldn't work anymore. My phone was ringing...I was confused..no one else had my number. I answered the call..

"Hello?"

"Don't be so surprised. Remember I will do anything to find and kill you..." the voice...was messed up by a machine...so I wouldn't be able to tell who it is...da- - this person...I am too smart for it though...I know its a girl..

"Hey, What's your challenge? I accept it."

"You got guts..ok. What you want to do is look around. Do you see something unusual?" the lady said. I did as told and..I did see something unusual..On the top of the water fountain...there was a CAMERA...

"So you have been spying on me?" I said and laughed. I felt that I had guts now that the person had called me.

"Smart girl I see but just cause we are talking like this doesn't mean that I will stop trying to kill you. Just remember. I will...be watching you where ever you are...I am there..." and she hung up. Right before she hung up though....I listened too carefully...The noises in the background...dogs barking...cars passing..The tea pot on...I know where that was.

"SuMin..." HyunSeung said and took my shoulder into his hand. I shoved away.

"Sorry...I have to do something now." I ran back to NaRaLi's place. I know where to go now.... I opened NaRaLi's door and ran inside. Her tea pot was on...the dogs from the neighbors behind the apartment were barking...and the cars outside...Just as I thought.....

"Don't you have somewhere to go?" NaRaLi said.

"How would you know?"

"I mean..what do you want for lunch?"

"Anything would be fine." I sat down keeping my eyes on her...then something caught my eye...it wasn't NaRaLi's. I opened it up secretly and looked through who she just called...and it was my number...how did she do that with her voice...

"SuMin...Put the phone back." I looked up and saw her glaring at me. I got up and put the phone down..."So you found out. Great."

"Why do you want to kill me. At least tell me that."

"Oh for one stupid reason. All the guy's like you. If you disappear I will be next in line. I am better than you."

"If you are better than me...then why DO all the guys like me and not you?" I shot back at her. I never really knew all the guys liked me though....but..I do now..She laughed by now.

"Don't act so tough...I know you SuMin. You couldn't hurt a fly." she was right about that...but words are better than actions..right?

"Just stop this. I will forgive you. You won't have to g- -" she started choking me.."S...stop." her hands tightened around my neck.

"Oh..looking at you die is...quite fun. haha" I couldn't think anything....

"HYUNSEUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I managed to scream his name and run away from NaRaLi. She got me again. choking...but harder...I almost fell out of the balcony....slipping...

"NaRa- -...stop....pl...."

HyunSeung POV

"HYUNSEUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I heard my name...I had followed SuMin but lost her...and now..I was sure that was her voice.. I ran as fast as I could toward her.

"SUMIN??? WHERE ARE YOU!!???" I looked up...."SUMIN!" she was falling...I ran like lighting and caught her in time. I scraped my arm against the floor..blood came from SuMin though....I looked up and saw NaRaLi..I called the police...she was running now...but I set SuMin down and ran just in time to catch her.

"You...heh...if SuMin dies..I will make you regret what you did." The police was here and took her. SuMin was rushed to the hospital....

"Is she alright?" I asked the doctor.

"She lost blood....are you willing to donate? You have the same blood type- -"

"I will." I said, "Can we do it now?"

"Yes."

As my blood was getting drawn...I was thinking...SuMin...This is for you..If you die I die..if you smile I smile.. If you cry...I will make you smile.

thank you for reading~:)

Sticky Notes

Note: I didn't edit the story because it's not mine..

Credits

Author: Lollipopluv

The First Day

╚SuMin

╒7:40am

I walked into class...took a breath and sat down. I wasn\'t new...we students were all new actually..this is my first day of high school....I knew some people...and some I don\'t. I was a bit nervous... my classroom was airy...

I hope to find love...That\'s mostly every girl\'s dream...I haven\'t had love....I wonder how it feels like.

Today, is April 19, 2010. I will start to learn new things starting today.

The teacher wasn\'t here yet so I walked around the halls touring the place...I looked outside towards the sun of the day. It was so bright a beautiful summer morning.

-bump-

\"Oh! I\'m sorry!\" I said and rubbed my head. I looked up to find a boy that was my age...His eyes were so blue...like the sky right now...compared to mine...my eyes looked black though they were a different dark brown than everyone\'s...

\"Hey, watch where you\'re going hahahaha Just kidding. Take your time around here. Hi, I\'m Spencer.\" he said with a smile.

\"I-I\'m SuMin...\" I said.

\"Nice to meet you. Are you in my class?\" he asked.

\"I think so. Yes.\"

\"Well that\'s good. You could help me around after you are done touring the place. I am new as well.\" I said and pushed his dirty-light-blonde, curly, short hair to the side, \"I have to go now. See ya~\"

He headed to the classroom leaving me not able to breathe...

The life of high school...has started...

The Other Boy

╚SuMin

╒2:30pm

-April 19, 2010-

In class, I did my work diligently but I kept thinking of Spencer...He's a nice person...I told myself.

No, this wasn't good to think about boys while you are doing your work.

We had a quiz. A quiz that wouldn't count because they were just trying to see what we knew and didn't. I actually think that I did well. First, it was Math, Reading, Language Arts, Social Studies, and finally Science. I am

not very good with that one...but I hope I passed some.

After the tests, we got to go home. It was around...3:50pm now. I walked out of class and headed down the hall towards the exit. I was excited to leave on the first day. After today, you wouldn't be so nervous anymore. I walked out the exit so happy that I jumped up in the air. Then, I walked on home.

When I got home I decided to go on the internet some. I had no homework so why not? I went onto AKP and looked at the new news...nothing..nothing...nothing on BEAST....but there was something about 2PM...their new teaser!!! *Without U - 2PM*

The piano is VERY haunting...but anyways. I had nothing else to do so I got off the computer and went to ago ask my sister, " Hey! Can I use your camera?"

"Why?" she asked.

"Because I gotta take pictures for my JYP audition. Remember?"

"But aren't you supposed to wait? I think it was...until the 28th of this month right?"

"Yea...you're right..." I said and went outside for a walk.

I had forgotten about that....I auditioned twice thinking I failed my first one...but then I figured out that they just viewed both of my auditions...and now I have to wait 3 weeks...which is on the 28th of this month...I am really scared to see what will happen....I don't have a phone...so they will email me instead if I get accepted. I am only 14....And I have a lot of stress put onto me...My family problems...I need to leave...I want to leave...

I tried out for JYP because of a lot of different reasons...but one is to LEAVE THIS PLACE.... That's the side of me no one really knows about...Except for my friend Kim ChaeRim...Her name is really Myra. ChaeRim is really just the name I gave her. Same goes for Yong Hara(Liz), Yang EunJung(Angel), Lee GyuRi(Hillary). I made those names for them...and me...well let's just say Park SuMin is not my name but it just stuck so I got my name changed. Just so you know, I do not live in Korea. I am in America as I speak...well..Speaking in English.

I went around the corner to my friend's house. Her name was Kirstein (Keer-Stin). Yes, that is a name. She's been my friend since 8th grade because all her life she's gone to private schools. Now she goes to public schools. She entered the same high school as me and her other friends.

I miss those days...Middle school was so fun. School is my escape from my home. People would look at me like

I was crazy when I say that I love school.

"Hey Kirstein!!" I said and walked up to her.

She got up from where she was planting her garden and said, "Hey! Sorry I wasn't at school today. I had to stay home and tend theses flowers."

"That's alright. Can I help?" I asked and knelt down to help her.

She's always been planting. Ever since I met her. I wonder what plants are to her.

"What do plants mean to you?" I asked while planting some seeds.

"Everything actually. People see them as plants you can pick up to smell but I respect the growing plants. They are part of our nature." she said.

I could see in her eyes that she really meant what she was saying. Almost like me when I talk of things I really love.

"Well, be at school tomorrow alright? I gotta go now. It's time for dinner." I said and looked at my watch. It was 6:20pm.

"Ok, go back safely. I think I might go in, too. See you tomorrow."

"Actually you wanna walk together? I think we could go walk in a group with Myra and the others."

"Alright. Bye." she said.

I waved and ran home.

"What's for dinner?" I asked and sat down.

"Vegetable soup, Chicken pot pie and some stew."

"That sounds nice." I said.

I waited till my whole family got there and then we ate.

The food was really delicious and full with every bite. Who would say no to this dinner?

After dinner, I waited around for an hour and finally it was 8o'clock. I went and got dressed in my workout clothes and ran around the neighbor hood. This was my daily exercise. Without it I wouldn't be the size I am.

The way I was before...was not so pretty but now I am fine. My family was fat...but now we all changed and work out different ways and times. We all are fit and skinny now.

I ran back in and took a shower. A very long one. I got out and got ready for bed.

-100420-

╒6am

I woke up and took another shower. I brushed my teeth and everything. Then I went out to my drawer to look for something to wear. I found some jean shorts, a tank top, and my converses. I tied my hair to the side.

Now I was ready to go to school. I got my backpack and headed to Kirstein's house.

"You ready?" I asked as she entered her porch.

"Yea. Let's go get Myra and Hillary now."

"Alright."

We walked to Myra's house first then to Hillary's. We only got Myra to walk with us because Hillary was still sleeping.

"Should I call her and tell her that she is going to be late?" Myra asked.

"Yea but hurry we are going to be late ourselves. Its almost 7:30!" and we took a run for it.

We made it to school on time, fortunately. Hillary was going to have to have her mom sign her a note saying that she was late because of something else. She'd get detention if she was late because of sleeping.

"Did you call her yet?" I asked.

"No, but I will now." Myra said.

"See ya both later. I gotta get to my first class." Kirstein said.

"See ya." we said.

"Did she answer?"I asked.

"No...*sigh* I guess we have to just go to class." she said.

"See ya. Off to Math I go." I said and walked away.

I looked out the window and saw Hillary running in. I sort of laughed. Not a mean laugh but a relieved laugh.

I walked more carefully.

-bump-

Not again...I though.

"Sorry...I wasn't looking." I said.

"It's alright."

I looked up and saw a different person. This guy was taller, dirty blonde hair that wasn't curly, blue eyes with a gold ring around the pupil. He was...cute.

"I'm Chandler. Who are you?" he asked.

"I'm SuMin. Nice to meet you."

"Well, I'm off now. Nice meeting you" he said and walked towards the science room.

It's weird...Meeting two different people almost the same way.

Spencer...now Chandler...oh my gosh...

I think I have fallen...but not for Spencer...For Chandler...

She Likes Him Too

╚SuMin

╒3pm

I actually forgot...I used to know Chandler...back in the 6th grade...then we just forgot each other...

That is the worst memory of all..how can you forget someone who was always in the same grade and classed with you...? I think liking him won't be so bad...

I got up and walked to the window in the hallway. The boys were playing basketball.

There I saw Spencer and Chandler...on the same team. When they shot a goal they clapped hands.

"Hey!" Myra yelled in my ear.

"OW!!" I said and rubbed my ear.

"I have to tell you something..."

"What?" I said.

"You remember Chandler?"

"Yea. Why?"

"I...I like him..."

"....th-that's good. You should go ask him out."

"Really? You think so?"

"Y-Yea!"

"I'll do it....tomorrow." she said, "I need to get strength first."

"I could tell him for you.."

"You would? Thanks!! A bunch! I'll ask him tomorrow." she said and ran off.

It was time to go now...I needed to keep my promise to Myra. So, I ran down to the exit to fin Chandler.

There he was...he looked so perfect...but no...I needed to tell him about Myra..

"Ch-Chandler!" I yelled to him.

He turned around and I swear it was almost too perfect...everything went in slow motion...

and then...My heart skipped a beat.

"Hey SuMin!" He said and walked over.

"Umm...H-hey...I gotta tell you something."

"Oh yea? Go on..." he said.

"My friend...she..No. Do you remember Myra?"

"Oh yea why?"

That felt like a slap in the face...how could he remember her and not me...

"She likes you...and she - -"

"That's great!"

"It is?" I asked.

"Of course. I like her too....is she going to ask- -"

"mmmhmmm...See ya..." I said and walked away.

╒7pm

When I got home I suddenly got a new phone...

"Thanks dad!!" I said and hugged him.

I texted all my friends that I had a phone and gave them my number.

I didn't want to go to school...why is there so much drama...

*ring*

"Hello?" I asked.

"SuMin?" the person sounded familiar..

"Hey! This is Spencer."

"Oh...how did you get my number?"

"I asked your friend. umm...Hillary?"

"Oh yea. But why did you call?"

"Because I just wanted to. But do you know that Chandler likes Myra?"

I hesitated to answer...".....Yea...why?"

"I don't know...it's cause you seemed like you liked him. I saw you looking at him from the window today."

"You stalker hahah.."

"And.."

"And?"

"Myra likes him too huh?"

"...Please dont say anymore...I already have to help her..." I said about to cry.

"Sorry. Well, sleep well now."

"bye."

I hung up the phone...I never really got to know...if Chandler even remembers me...that's the sad part..

I fell asleep not eating anything...Maybe I'll be fine tomorrow...I just have to put on a smile...

-100421-

╒10am

"Myra? Did you ask him yet?" I asked while we were walking in the hall to our next class.

"No...I don't think I can- - "

"Yes! You can. If I were you I'd do it!" I said as if speaking to myself.

"...You're right...I should go now."

"Go. And tell him. He likes you too. Don't worry."

I looked as she ran out the building onto the soccer field where he was...

I looked at the whole thing...even though I couldn't hear because it was far away...

and it seemed...he said yes...She was happy and they hugged each other...then I noticed Spencer. He looked at them and then at me...and I just looked away..I regret this...but I shouldn't right?...She's my friend..if she is happy...I am happy...am I not?...

I sat on the floor below the window and curled my knees to my chest...and there I sat crying...

Aren't I supposed to be happy?

It's Okay

╚SuMin

-100424-

╒4am

Today was a Saturday morning....a very early morning...

I don't know why I woke up so early on a day off...I sort of went on a walk...the city lights were still on...So I

saw my way to the park.

When I reached the park I sat down on a swing.

The times of Summer...the times of high school...

Remembering things from back then...Chandler and I were best friends...We knew everything of each other.

It's been days since Chandler and Myra have been dating...I haven't talked to anyone in a while. I seem to have

distanced my relationship with others...

Every time I was in the hall and I saw them together...my tears would start to fall and I would run the other way.

Even if I asked him something...he would treat me like i was nothing.....for example..just yesterday...

"Chandler, Can I have a hug?"

"Why?"

"Just because..."

"Sorry I only hug my girlfriend." and next thing you know...he turns around and hugs a girl that isn't his girl friend.

That is what hurts most...What happened to our friendship....

*ring*

"What Spencer..." I asked..

"Are you ok?"

"I'm Fine.." I lied..tears were falling...

"You don't look okay..."

"You're here?" I asked.

"Look up."

I hung up and looked.

*kiss*

I didn't see that coming...I didn't know what to do...that was my first kiss....

I pushed him away and got up from my swing...

"Sorry...." he said...

"Sorry?...That's all you can say...."

"Yea...I mean..I like you...but you don't seem to like me the same way...You always have Chandler on your mind. You know...he remembers you from 6th grade."

"He does....?" I said and turned away.

"Yea...he says that he remembers you...but he doesn't like you that way...he likes you as a friend..."

"How is Myra?" I asked.

"She never really wants to talk to him...she is so shy..."

"I figured...she has always been the quiet type..and what does he think about it.." I asked.

"He is thinking...should he break up with her..."

"NO!! Where is he?" I snapped and turned to look at Spencer.

"He is at home."

"Give me his number..."

"Here..." he gave me his number..." Do you remember where he lives?"

"Yea...."

I called him while running to his house.

"Hello?" his voice came.

"YOU CANT!!" I yelled over the traffic noises.

"I can't what?" he asked.

"YOU CANT BREAK UP WITH HER!!! YOU JUST CANT!!"

"SuMin....I don't want to...but she never talks to m- -"

"I CAN MAKE HER!!!"

"No...It's already too late.."

"I am At your house...come out..." I said as my voiced lowered as i was far away from the traffic.

Minutes later he came out. He looked like he was cold...

"Sorry its cold..but...why?" I said.

"Because...I told you...I can't communicate with her..."

"That's it?" I said.

"That's it..."

"That is stupid...you jerk..."

I went up to him and took his neck and lowered his head to mine...our lips joined then parted.

"What..."

"Shut up...I like a jerk like you..so what...I believe this is only one side of you...though you hurt my friend...I will always love you...As they say...First loves never die..." I said and ran back home...

"AHH!!!!!!!" I screamed over the traffic noises and fell to my knees.

I called Myra.

"Myra?....Are you fine?"

"I...I'm okay....You can have your chance with him now..." she said with a choked voice...

"Are you crying.."

"I'm fine...You can have a chance with him..."

"How do you- -"

"It's okay..." she said interrupting me.." I don't love a jerk like him...I could never....I made a mistake."

"........" I didn't know what to say...

"It's okay...really...just know that Chandler has another girlfriend...."

".....Alright...bye..." I said and hung up...

It's okay....?

╒10am

Honey - Ock Joo Hyun

I went to school just because I wanted to...I noticed someone else was there...or at least because someone's backpack was there..I shrugged that thought away.. I walked to my class room and sat in my desk at the middle...

*ring*

"Chandler?" I asked.

"Sup?"

"Can I tell you something..."

"Anything....this is a side I will show you..."

"I auditioned for JYPEntertainment.."

"What's that?" he asked.

"Just listen...And I am afraid...I don't know if I will get accepted...I want to leave this place...I have so many problems...I cry more often too...It's all too much stress for me..."

"Well, Find another thing and make it stronger...You can cry....but just remember to believe..."

"Thanks Chandler...you know...I never will regret loving you....Bye..."

I hung up and sat in the class...I just couldn't help it...I kept thinking of all that's past...I sighed and cried...

I put my head in my arms and put my arms on the desk...There I let all my tears run out and onto the desk..

I need to be stronger...why can't I ...

"Hey." I looked up and saw Chandler...so he was the one who was here...

"What do you want?" I asked and wiped away my tears.

"Here..." he said and gave me a green sticky note.

It read:

It's Okay hehe

I couldn't help but smile....I love you Chandler...

The Day I Met Him

╚SuMin

-100424-

╒5pm

I decided to forget the things that happened...So I walked around the school some just to clear my thoughts.

"So this is the new students?" I heard the principal say.

I walked behind the door to eavesdrop on them

"Yes, They are transferrers from Korea."

"Names?"

"Hello, I am Jang HyunSeung." the first voice said in a funny but cute accent.

"Hello, I am Yong JunHyung."

"I'm Lee GiKwang."

"I am Yoon DuJun."

"I am Yang YoSeob."

"I am Song DongWoon. The Best in english out of us all." and he was right. He did have good english.

"You 6 right? You 6 will start tomorrow. Be early."

"Yes, Ma'am." they said.

I heard them coming towards the door. I ran down to the nearest classroom and hid behind the door.

"I can't wait to come here tomorrow." the taller one said.

"Me either this place looks nice." the blonde one said.

Who are they?

-100425-

╒8am

I walked to school anxiously to figure out who the new Korean kids were. I was the first student to know.

I said hey to Chandler and Spencer on my run in into the school and ran to class. I saw all of them sitting. The blonde boy sitting on the window sill laughing, the tall one standing, the deer eyed one sitting on the desk, the muscular one doing push-ups, the oldest one was talking, and the tattoo-on-his-chest guy was rapping.

When I entered the class, they all looked up at me and stared.

I looked at all of them, "Hi...Are you all new?"

"Yes." the oldest one answered.

"Hi...I am SuMin. And all of you?"

"DuJun."

"DongWoon."

"JunHyung."

"YoSeob the cutie~~"

"GiKwang the muscle guy."

"HyunSeung."

HyunSeung stood out to me...His eyes, jawline...everything...

"Where are you all from?" I asked.

"Seoul, Korea." DongWoon answered.

"Oh Cool...Do you all know any kpop groups?" I asked excitedly.

"Yea, we don't know know them but we know of them. 2AM, 2PM, Boa and more. Lots more."

"hmm...Well, I can be the person you all can talk to. Trust me." I said.

"O-okay." DuJun said.

Sometime later in Gym, HyunSeung hit a slam dunk...It was like slow motion....His jump, the movement of his wrist to the basketball, and the dunk of the ball. All of it...I felt...Like I had fallen again.

"HyunSeung!" I screamed to him.

He came running over.

"Hey." He said.

"That was a good slam dunk. Do you play a lot of sports?"

"No, not really but DuJun does."

"Oh. What do you do?"

"I dance."

"Really? I do to. Can you show me something?"

"Sure. Glide?"

"I know how to glide. But show me anyways."

"Alright."

He showed me and the movement was priceless I tell you. No glide was that smooth. 4

"Now you show me." he said.

"Okay, but It's not as good as yours."

I glided as best as I could.

"That's good. Really. Do you want me to teach you some dance moves?"

"Sure! That'd be great!"

"Okay then, tomorrow at the gym in town at 3am."

"So early...But alright."

"It's early so we can still go to school. Bye now~ See ya around."

"Byebye~" I waved as he went in the locker room to change out.

SuMin...You are crazy.... I told myself.

"SuMin!" Chandler called to me when I was exiting the school.

"Yes?"

"That HyunSeung guy. He seems cool."

"I know right? He's going to teach me how to dance more awesome from before.

"........"

"What?" I asked.

"Do you like him?"

"Maybe...yea. Why?" I was confused.

"No reason. See ya."

I wonder what that was for.

I walked home slowly playing some dance music on my iPodTouch. I found a person who liked to dance as much as I did. Everyone I tried to teach failed and said they wouldn't dance again for a million dollars. Dancing takes you away from everything...even singing...that was my life.

I reached home and exercised before sleeping. I worked out twice as hard this time. I was ready for tomorrow.

I fell asleep early wondering:

How Will Tomorrow Be like...?

You Are My JOJO but My Friend

╚SuMin

-100426-

╒4am

"Okay, move your feet like this...Angle them a bit..Perfect. Now try it all together." HyunSeung said.

"Like this?" I said and did the moves.

"Like a Charm." he said and smiled.

"What song are we doing this to?" I asked.

"There is no song. You are only having lessons. Later, there will be a song."

"oh, alright."

HyunSeung taught me a lot of moves. He had GiKwang and JunHyung teach me some also. These guys were the best friends you could have. Each and everyone of them became my brother in one second of a life time. DongWoon, like my older brother. DuJun, like a sports coach. GiKwang, a brother who would always have your back. JunHyung, the one who teaches you how to be sharp. YoSeob, the cutesy bro. and HyunSeung...he's everything.

"Hey! Try this move." YoSeob said and did a chicken dance.

"What? hahahaha" I said and couldn't stop laughing. He was just too funny.

"Ya! Don't teach my student stupid things hahahaha" he said.

"I am not a student hahah I am 5 months younger than you are." I laughed.

"That still counts hahaha" he said.

We ended up doing stupid dances at the end before we had to go to school. We all laughed well and had fun.

These relationships wouldn't end.

╒8am

"Myra!!!" I yelled to her as I ran.

"Hey!" she called back, "Where were you?"

"Oh me? I was learning some dances with the new kids. Why?"

"Just wondering hahaha So do you still love Chandler..?"

"Yes...and I will never regret doing so but I am like a bird now. I am free. I don't like anyone really."

"That's good. Come on, let's go to class."

"Okay!"

As we entered the class room, Hillary came running towards us.

"HEY! WAIT!!!" she yelled.

"What?" we asked.

"Who-Who's that new kid? The blonde one?"

"Oh him? He's YoSeob why?" I asked.

"Do you think...you could introduce me to him?"

"Sure..hahah why not? We'll do it after school."

"Thanks so much SuMin. Let's go into the classroom now."

"Hahah Aight." I said.

When we were in class GiKwang kept falling asleep. I guess he doesn't remember anything hahah...

HyunSeung and JunHyung threw paper balls at him when the teacher wasn't looking. GiKwang didn't notice though he was too busy sleeping.

"Mr. Lee?" the teacher said and headed to his desk.

"GiKwang?" DuJun whispered to him.

He was still sleaping.

"MR. LEE PLEASE TRY AND STAY AWAKE PLEASE THANK YOU!" she yelled into his ear.

He jerked up and said sorry. we started laughing and so did GiKwang.

Angel looked at GiKwang and laughed. Her face started to turn pink from blushing.

"Angel!" I whispered to her.

"Yea?"

"Let's meet in the town park."

"Alright. Who else is going?" she asked.

"Liz, Hillary, Myra, and I." I said.

"After school?"

"Yea."

Today, class was funny and the teacher pulled some pranks on GiKwang since he was sleeping. She put a toy spider on his face that was hanging from the ceiling and he yelled like a girl. We basically didn't learn much today but we had fun. Well, actually we learned how to play pranks hahaha and not to sleep in class.

As class ended I told Myra, Liz, Angel, and Hillary about going to the park right after school and then I told them I'd meet them there in a second. Then when they left...

"Hey guys! Let's go to the park right after school." I said.

"Okay we have nothing else to do." JunHyung said.

"Alright. Let's go." I said.

When we arrived at the park Myra and the others were all there. I planned this because they ALL seemed to like one person from my brothers. I'll call it..a hook up.

"Hey!" I waved to them. They looked over and started blushing as they saw DuJun and the others behind me, "Come on!" I added and ran toward them with DuJun and them behind me.

"SuMin! What is this?" they took me away and whispered.

"What? hahah It's obvious that you all want to get to know them and you all like one person from them all."

"You're right..." Liz said.

We went back the them and I introduced them all to each other. They all acted like they knew each other from child hood. This was great.

"pstt!" i said to Myra, Liz, Hillary and Angel.

"what?" the came to me and we whispered.

"You all might want to become to know each other more." I said, "They are really nice guys."

"We know..we can tell." Angel said.

Later, Hillary went with YoSeob to the swings. Myra, with DuJun. Liz with JunHyung. Angel with GiKWang. And I was stuck with HyunSeung and DongWoon.

"Hey...Do they- -"

"Yep." I said cutting off DongWoo, " Yes they do like those guys."

"Oh..I figured." he said.

"I hope them the best if they ever go out." HyunSeung said.

"Me too." we answered.

-100427-

I was standing in line outside of the class room while I was Chandler and his girlfriend. Chandler was trying to tell her something but she looked mad...and she walked away. Chandler came in line and hit the wall. I didn't know what to do...My heart was pounding with fear..

In class I was thinking of what to do...the Sticky Note! I thought.

I took one and wrote:

'!YO!

Hey...whatever it is...

make it up and then be happy emot1-cute.gif '

And when he wasn't looking I put it on his desk. I went back to my own and stared at him from the back.

He finally saw the note and read it...I watched more..and a smile appeared on his face. He turned around and said:

"SuMin!"

and I looked up, "Huh?"

"Thanks for this..." he said and turned back around.

I was happy that I could make him think about things more carefully and not let them bite him...

Later he gave his girlfriend a not that said he loved her and that he was sorry. She had a huge smile as well.

I wonder ... do I really not like anyone?. I walked to the gym in town and met up with HyunSeung and the other guys.

"Sup?" I said and started stretching.

"SuMin...I need to tell you something." HyunSeung said.

"What?" I was confused. I walked up to him and he took my arm and we went behind the bleachers.

"What is it?" I asked.

"You...You are my JOJO but my friend..." he said.

"Wha- -"

He kissed me and my words faltered in the kiss...

You Are My JOJO But My Friend....?

I Was Wrong About Them...

╚SuMin

-100427-

╒10am

My words faltered in the kiss....then...I heard noises...laughing noises and HyunSeung began laughing.

The kiss didn't seem so real anymore..I pushed away and looked. There was GiKwang, DuJun, YoSeob, DongWoon, and JunHyung laughing...HyunSeung was, too. He just looked like he couldn't stop but to me...this was NOT funny...

"What are you all laughing about?" I asked.

"*laughs* *clears throat* hahaha I can't help it. That was a trick hhahah!! You Fell for it!! You really did!! ahahaha" HyunSeung said.

"So..so..you all set this up?"

"Yea. hahaha you think I like you ? Dream on ahahahah Let's go guys!" HyunSeung said coldly and they walked away.

What is wrong with this....I was in a fantasy...and now...i am back to real life...

"SO DOES THAT MEAN YOU ALL WILL HURT MY FRIENDS TOO?!" I yelled.

"MAYBE. WHAT DO YOU THINK? HAHAHAHAHAH!!" they yelled back...

I fell to my knees...

I was wrong about them...about all of them...they were like brothers...and now..some people you couldn't trust anymore...

"HAVE YOU EVEN LEARNED TO LOVE?!" I yelled even though they were gone..."AHH!!!!!!!" I yelled with pain and anger...

These are the reasons..I don't want to be here...

╒4pm

I skipped school today...I didn't want to endure the pain of seeing their faces...their laughs...

The memory all echoes in my head...

you think i like you? Dream on hahahaha

That sentence...this is what I get for liking someone I shouldn't...

*ring*

"Hello?...Oh spencer..what's up?"

"Nothing Just wanted to- - hey....are you crying?"

"N-no..."

"Let me call Chan- -"

"NO! I-I mean...I'm fine...no need to...it's nothing hahah" I faked a laugh, "It's just a drama problem is all..."

"It doesn't matter...Chandler and I still care..."

"You...you shouldn't...don't waste your caring on a person like me...I am nothing...bye..."

"Su- -"

*hangs up*

There is no point...I should be left alone for a while...a long long while....

I slept curled up in my bed letting all my tears of my past wash away...from family problems...to school problems...to..drama problems...there was no point in believing anymore...no point...

*ring*

"Hello?"

"SuMin..."

"...*sigh* what do you want Chandler..."

"Spencer called me and told me you weren't okay..."

"Oh great...*sigh*....but...i am fine...honestly...don't worry about me...I'll be fine..."

"I'm sure you aren't sure of that..."

I wiped away my tears and said, "Chandler...I am really fine...just please...I am begging you...please leave me alone...I'll be fine..."

"Just promise me.."

"What.."

"Promise me...that...that you won't you know..."

"Be EMO again?"

"Yea.."

"I won't....i learn from my past mistakes ... bye...."

*hangs up*

Why did he have to remind me....

\FLASHBACK/

Today was beautiful...except...my arm....all around it...I had cuts...everything that's happened...it's all too much for me...so I cut to let all the pain leave...

I cover my arms everyday. The teachers here are VERY nosy about things.

Someone took my arm...

Oh no! I thought. I had left my sleeve up...

"SuMin...what...is this..."Chandler asked.

"It..It's nothing. My cat just scratched me is all hahaha" I lied.

"You...*sigh* You don't even like cats .. nor do you have one..Please...SuMin..stop..." he begged and lifted my arm and kissed it, "Your skin is too perfect to ruin...please..."

From that day on...i never cut...

\END/

but after...I realized that cutting myself.. I almost killed myself..I took that as a lesson and stopped...

I know better not to anymore...I know better.

I got up from my bed and walked over to my window..I opened it and breathed the night air...

"So calming...I wish I could be the night...to shadow everyone's fears...including my own.." I whispered to the wind passing by...

Then it came to me!

Tomorrow I was going to get a mail from JYPEntertainment....

but...I am so afraid to open my email though...hopefully tonight i will have to courage to do so...

I wonder what I am going to get tomorrow..no mail...or an email from JYP.....

The Last Days.....Together....

SuMin~

♫♪4am

Why did I wake up so early....right now it is only 5pm in Korea...here it is 4am....they can't send the e-mail that fast...right? Today is Wednesday....ugh...I might as well check it now....

*gasp*

♫♪12pm

"HEY!!" Myra yelled to me as I was walking down the hall.

"What?" I asked her.

"You almost fell down the stairs.."

"Oh really...didn't notice.." and i just kept walking.

"Are you ok?"

"Fine..."

"Wait...what's today....THE 28th! SPENCER!!! CHAND---"

"SH!!!!What are you doing?"

"What ?" Chandler asked as Spencer was coming out from the classroom."

"It's nothing!" I said and ran off.

Why...Why do they always do that.....why call Spencer and Chandler....but the truth I am really- -

"Hey hey hey...hahah look who it is." DuJun's voice came.

"Leave her alone....let's just go..." HyunSeung said and left.

"Hey! Why?" YoSeob said.

"Because...I said so. Now let's get to class before we ALL get in trouble." HyunSeung said as they all left before him..why did he stay after...

"Why didn't you go along..." I asked almost scared.

"I thought about what i did...and what you said...about even loving someone....I don't think i ever like someone..I've always just pretended and shoved them off like i did to you...but...i wonder how it feels to like someone...."

"You...you wouldn't know until you try...bye...."

"Wait..." he clutched my arm tight..

"What..you're hurting me..." I said and flinched as he gripped harder as if he was scared to say something...

"I know that you auditioned for JYPE....my whole group....we have a secret..."

"What secret? and how did you know about JYPE?"

"From Myra but anyways...we are the popular group BEAST..."

"Oh really...then why are you here?" I said not believing him.

"Really! Please believe me...we are leaving tomorrow...believe what you want to..but i am saying truce..."

I was really beginning to believe him....his name is the same as the one i like from BEAST....and the other members as well..."But...are you all like this? I mean...you guys are cruel..."

"No...we wanted to try it out....It wasn't our decision...it was our manager...he said we should try to act a different way so that people won't notice us...."

"So is that all you have to say to me?"

"....." he paused for a bit,"If...if I were to like you someday....what would you do...."

".......모르겠어요....." I said in Korean on accident..it means I don't know.

"모르겠어요....You speak Korean?" HyunSeung said in a shocked voice.

"Of course," i took my hand out from his grasp, " If I don't know Korean then why would i try out for JYPE without learning...gosh...my arm hurts now..." I said rubbing my arm and hand.

"Wow....hahaha- -or should i laugh the Korean way?"

"Babo...do what you must. I'm leaving." I said and left to class.

"I can't believe you speak Korean..."

"Believe it man! I just spoke to you in Korean....Is this how you treat the person you like?"I said and entered the classroom.

"...the person I like...HEY!!! I DIDN'T SAY I LIKE YOU !!! I SAID IF!!!"

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"야!! 몇시예요?" (Hey! What time is it?) I asked to HyunSeung as we walked home.

"It's 5pm....why?" he asked.

"Oh no! BYE !!! ....사랑해!!" I yelled and ran off. I didn't know if I should like him again....because.....

I was leaving....on Friday this week...I will be leaving...to Korea...

\FLASH BACK TO EMAIL/

I opened my email...*gasp*

I actually...got mail from JYPE....I clicked on it and read it. It said:

Congrats you have been selected out of millions to be trained under JYPEntertainment.

We wish you well on your journey and remember the key thing is to NEVER give up.

One more thing, you will be leaving to come to Seoul on Friday of this week. So spend your time

wisely with everyone. We will pay for your ticket. Just make sure you are on time. The flight will be at 10pm where you are.

-The JYPEntertainment Training Team-

\END/

I couldn't really believe it at first...i read it over 500 times just to wake myself up....

I walked inside of my house and washed up for dinner...Tonight....I will be happy...

"Hey SuMin. Why are you so cheery tonight?" my second oldest sister asked.

"No reason." I said, "Just eat up."

I had no intention of telling them yet...I was planning to leave...and then call once I reached Seoul.

They wouldn't miss me anyways....After I left, there will be on less mouth to feed and to pay for....

♫♪12am

I still can't sleep...today is thursday...and tomorrow...is friday....

I got up and secretly started to pack. First, I packed my clothes...then my hair ties...shoes in one packing bag...my books in the other...my ipods, my necklaces...and especially.... my necklace that has a piece of rice and on it was written: JHS for JangHyunSeung...my friend LULU made it for me...I don't talk to her much anymore...she is busy...but anyways..then I packed everything else...and now...my room seemed empty...I didn't pack much, though. I went outside and took a leaf. A summer leaf...I went back in and wrote: Summer, Georgia Leaf...Don't Forget. And I put that on the leaf and taped the whole thing...I did this with every leaf I found on every season...Winter ones were hard to find....Autumn...Spring...Summer...I planned for this day...

I stayed up till 4am writing a goodbye message....

I was ready for The Last Days....Together...

The Message; When I left...

╚SuMin

♫♪10am

[100429]

I walked hesitantly towards the classroom....When I entered no one was here yet so that was good. I saw the teacher sitting at her desk. So, I walked over.

"....ummm...Excuse me..." I said stuttering.

"Yes?"

"I am leaving...so...At the end of the school day can I read a goodbye message...it's important and I dont know if i will come back...soo..."

"You may. I wouldn't say no to a request like this. Well, Go on take a seat."

I walked to my desk and took a seat.

"I won't give you any work...you may choose to do what ever you want. You can leave before the students get here and surprise them at the end if you want."

" Sure...but I want to sit a bit more...."

"I understand...Well I am leaving. I will be back in a few. Good luck."

I nodded as she left and put my head onto the desk.

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I sat for quite a while...I was breathing in the air that I'd miss...looking at the trees that I wouldn't see anymore...the desk arrangements...the atmosphere...this made me sad....I kinda didn't want to leave...but...I have to....I was remembering my short Highschool months together with everyone...

from the time Spencer kissed me...when I kissed Chandler...When HyunSeungii was being a jerk...when

I figured BEAST we here...everything....but they all happened for some reason...right?

I started hearing voices so I got my letter and ran out fast before anyone could notice me. I didn't know where to go hide at so I went to the old Gym near this school...it wasn't as neat as the one in town but it was neat enough.

I entered it and thankfully no one was in here. I put the letter in the pocket of my jeans and stretched for about 20 minutes. I started dancing...and singing....with each step and note I felt like I was flying...dancing took my pain away....but for some reason I felt tears run down my face and it began blurring my vision...

"DONGWOON...you're not supposed to cry this much....you cant cry in front of them...alright?...." I took in breathes.

I walked out of the gym and walked around the school, making sure no one saw me.

There was a little beautiful area....A big oak tree set aside by a picnic table and a birds nest...everything here...i was going to forget...I wish that I wouldn't...but that's life...we tend to forget the things we had...and only remember what we have...i wish it weren't like that...but i cant stop now...I already chose...and I am responsible for my actions....

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♫♪3:00pm

I walked into the classroom and stood in the front of the room. Some people just glanced and didn't glance back.

".....I need...I need to tell you all something..." I said.

The class room instantly went quiet and they all put their attention on me. BEAST....Spencer...Chandler...my friends....the teacher...

I was afraid to speak at first...but then I felt the letter in my hand and unfolded it. I laid it flat on the desk and looked down at it.

First my voice was low....and then it steadied a bit...but I was still afraid that I'd cry....

"I...no....*sigh*....hey....barely 4months I was here. Taking each step with you all...I loved the experience of highschool...but it was a bit harsh...but I don't regret those memories...n-no-not....not one bit..." I took in a breath feeling the tears form..."I take those memories...as memories that I will cherish...I hope to never forget them....but that is impossible...Everyone forgets...but I am hoping that i wont...i really am hoping...." I took a step forward and stared at them all..."Everyone...my friends....to my acquaintances...I love everyone of you...even if I met you for one day...it doesn't matter...I will always have you all in my heart somewhere...but what I wanted to say...was....I am leaving for Seoul, Korea...to be a trainee....and I will work very hard...ver--very...hard...." I couldn't help it anymore...my tears blurred my view and I cried....speaking with my voice choked i said "I-I am leaving at 10pm tonight....so this is my last goodbye...i dont think I will see any of you again...goodbye..."

I quietly stood there....i dont know what i was waiting for....maybe nothing..maybe a hug...maybe a goodbye...something...or nothing...

"Su-...SuMin....Goodluck..." the classroom started...

"SuMin...Hwaiting...dont give up..." BEAST winked at me. I smiled....

"We...we won't forget you either...you will always be here..." Spencer took my hand and put it on his heart...I felt it beating fast...I'm sorry Spencer....Sorry Chandler...Myra...Liz...Angel...Hillary....sorry.... I thought... I dont know why I am saying sorry...

I walked away....my hand slipping from Spencer's grasp...and walked out to the exit..and out to the sidewalk...

I started to walk...when I heard "SUMIN!!!DONT GIVE UP!!!!! BEAST WILL CHEAR YOU ON!!!!!" HyunSeung screamed and was followed by BEAST...

"ARE YOU GUYS COMING TO KOREA SOON?!" I yelled back and smiled..

and for the last time.... I turned and walked home....

*************************************

Secretly, I went to the airport by taxi and boarded the plane....This is the right path...I know it... I knew that I wouldn't regret anything that happens...Korea...get ready for the best artist you've ever seen....

Goodbye...

The Arrival

╚SuMin

[100503]

Getting off the plane was easy...walking on the ground wasn't....I felt like I had suddenly been

disconnected from the place I used to belong to. The ground felt hard and different under my shoes...

I didn't like that feeling...

I walked to the Exit of the airport and asked around for directions to JYPEntertainment. Some people looked

at me stingily and just walked away...it must've been 30 minutes until I actually got directions. I called for a

taxi and stood there for another 30 minutes until I got a taxi to drive me to my destination..

It must be busy here...I thought.

As I sat quietly in the car, I looked outside the opened window. The air smelled different...where ever I was...

I first smelt spicy kimchi...then the sweetness of cakes and candy then the sour smell of fish...no wonder I hate fish...

There were people walking, running, riding bikes, and sitting at cafes. This place was so different...but I guess I had to learn to like it all...there weren't really any trees...maybe one or two when you turned the corner..or some bushes planted into platforms...but I never really live in a city with no trees...It was hard...

"We are here." the taxi man said in Korean.

"Here you go.." I gave him money and left. I guess I have to start speaking Korean more...goodbye English...

I turned around to face the HUGE JYPE building...I wonder how many trainees trained here...a lot maybe...I took deeo breaths and closed my eyes...remembering the trees, the light shining through them, and the scent of the grass and air....it all gave me courage....I re-opened my eyes and walked straight into the building.

"Excuse me miss?" A man called after me.

I turned around and asked, "Ne?"

"Who are you?" he asked, "Are you here for an audition? If so please come thi- -"

"No. I was accepted by the JYPTraining team. Can you show me where to go?"

"Y-Ye~" he said and bowed. I bowed back and followed him.

This place was bigger on the inside...it looked like a mall....maybe bigger than a mall...

When I passed by something that looked familiar I stopped and walked over to it...It was a book....it looked like mine....I opened it and looked at the back of the front cover. In Korean it said: "This Book Belongs To Park SuMin"....but how did it get here- -Oh...I remember...I donated it a long time ago....that's where it went all these years...

"Ma'am?" the man asked and came over to me.

"This book is mine 하하하하하....you see?" I showed him where it said my name and he smiled.

"This book is loved by all the trainees and artists here. Mr. Park even loves it too..." he stopped and I saw sparkles in his eyes.

"Do you love this book too, sir?" I asked.

"Yes...but I never could say the title. Could you?"

"Ne~" I said and read him the title, "Forever Mine; Don't Give up."

"히히...I've read this book several times...I love it...who is the author...I know it's a she...but I can't get the name right."

"Th-the name...Sir..Can I tell you a secret?" I asked.

"Anything, I keep secrets well."

"This...this book was written by me and was published in 2007....I was only around 9 then...When I published it I was surprised to see how thick it was...about 1inch and a half....and so you see...My real name was Angela Thao...That's when I didn't have my name, Park SuMin..."

"ahh... I see....but this book was written so well..but I believe you. You seem very trusting and kind."

"Thank you sir...so please don't tell anyone."

"I promise. Come along now. We need to go to Mr. Park." he touched the book once more and walked ahead.

I looked at my book and started crying....my tears fell and stained the hard covered book..I set the book down, wiped my tears, and caught up with the man. That book means a lot to me...

"Sir? What is your name?" I asked.

"It is Baek HyunSoo...but call me Soohalaboji."(halaboji: grandpa)he said and walked again.

"S--Soohalaboji?"

"Ye?"

"Why do you like that book I wrote?"

"Because it just relates to the world...and it reminds me of my past granddaughter....she was very much like you....she died for her dream....and she was only 13 at the time...too young...."

"Sorry....but even though she is dead. She is somewhere good. She can fulfill her dream there as well. Don't you think?" I said trying to comfort Soohalaboji.

"I never thought of it that way...I guess I can imagine that....thank you...."

I bowed and kept walking behind him.

"Ok, here we are. Mr. Park is a busy man so wait here." he said and walked in.

All I heard was muffled talking and people walking. I wonder what they were talking about but it was none of my business so I just stood there quietly. You'd think that for a 13 year old like me, I'd be really nosy..to tell the truth I nosy...but just when I want to be.

Minutes later, Soohalaboji came back outside and gestured me to go into the office. I wasn't really hesitant. It was just that Mr. Park looked scary for a bit...but I could tell he was a funny person.

I bowed and said, "안녕하세요 박수민 입니다" (hello I am Park SuMin)

He got up and walked towards me, "So you're the one the training team is talking about."

"Eh?" I asked.

"The training team got you in because they said you were different, unique, and talented in ways others aren't. How old are you?"

"I am 13...sir."

"Yes..you're 13 that's what they said...Mostly girls that we accept that is your age never really had that much courage as you do, they didn't learn to dance on their own, they didn't teach themselves how to sing or play the piano or the guitar. That's what makes you unique." he said and returned to his chair behind the desk.

"I feel greatly honored sir." I didn't feel so scare anymore.

"Oh, here is your daily schedule." Soohalaboji handed me a folder. It was quite empty...I opened it and read the first page. It read, "Congratulations! On your first audition you have been selected to be apart of JYPEntertainment immediately." Immediately? I thought to myself...what does that mean...

"You Don't need lessons or anything of that sort. You just need to go to the classes for one year and I'll decide at the end If I want to put you in a group or let you be a trainee for longer."

"That's all?" It couldn't be that easy...

"Yea..That's all...Ms. Park SuMin...I hope you have the courage to stay with us..." Mr. Park said and walked out of the office.

"Soo...Soohalaboji....what does he mean?" I asked.

"He means that you will need to prepare yourself. Mr. Eptti the guitar teacher bought you a guitar personally for you. Mr. EJAYZ (ee-jay-z) is your dance teacher. Mrs. Topple is your piano teacher."

"Is that all the teachers I have?"

"No, I haven't finished."

"Go on..."

"Mr. Choi is your personal trainer. Ms. Nishikido is your language teacher. That is all. Be prepared. They will all be pushing you because they know you can do better. Mr. Choi was told that you are a very well trained-self trainer. Is that true?"

"Ye~very true. I exercise by myself." I said with a smile.

"Good then you won't get tired easily from all the work he has in for you. Good luck and see you around." Soohalaboji left the office and went back to his place at the entrance of the building. I went out of the office as well and looked at my papers. There was atually only 3 papers...one a congratulations letter and explaining my benefits since I am unique...another one was my schedule and the last one was a map of the place in case I got lost. I looked on the map and a building outside of JYPEntertainment was circled. Out to the side , it read "Your dorm is here. You will have a room of your own." I was excited. A room of my own for once....I got my things and headed out to my room.

When I opened the door all I saw was pure whiteness and a balcony. Everything was beautiful...I set my things down on my bed and went to go open my balcony door. It let the breeze of spring come in....I breathed the air...I think I was starting to like it...I went back to my things and opened my suitcase. I took out everything and put them where they belonged. The clothes in the closet. My skin care needs in the bathroom. My towels into the bathroom drawer. My shoes were all at the bottom of my walk-through closet ... i had so much shoes...I could walk through it anymore...but anyways...I put all my memories i collected into the drawer next to my bed and I put everything else up. To make it more homey feeling...I hung up my green window curtains, surprised that they fit, and fixed my bed with my green decorations. As you can see, green is my favorite color.

After, I finished with everything I sat on my balcony looking down at the streets and people walking around. It was actually fun living in the city...

I couldn't wait till tomorrow...

Walking The Streets of Seoul...

╚SuMin

[1005021]

♫♪4pm

A lot of people here in training know who I am now, and I am glad. We are all friends. I haven't had one bully. I thought I would. Guess not.

"SuMinssi!!" Mr. Eptti called to me.

"SIR?!" I called back and ran to get my guitar.

I have been holding this guitar for days now...Its sleek...black...and very the chords are very firm...the sound of of is just mystically awesome...It's like when I got my first guitar.

"SuMin?" he said again.

I was knocked back to reality, "Yes sir. Coming."

I ran to him and sat down in the chair across from him.

"What will we play today..." he wondered.

"Umm...there is a piece that I have been wanting to play...do you think I could..play it?"

"Well, of course. Every song I chose you played it the second you read the first note. But...what song is this?"

"It is called Easy...the sincere version by BEAST..."

"And why this song?"

"Not the words...but the music...the tune...every note. And I think that if I play it on the guitar it will have a different feel to it. So I would like to try please sir."

"Go ahead. I don't know this song. So I will sit back and listen." he rested his guitar on the table and sat down.

He then gestured his hand for me to start.

I had the song in my head....when I first hit the guitar...the sound came softly...then as the song ascended I got more smooth in the notes... My teacher was watching the chords and every movement of my fingers. That was his job...To make any corrections in my notes.

My guitar playing was interrupted by a group of squealing girls. I stopped and looked at my teacher then we both walked to the window and looked outside. There they were...

"Annyeonghaseyo! 2PM imnida!!" they came running inside and into the room I was in.

I didn't know what to do...I kinda stood there shocked...I didn't scream or anything....although i loved 2PM I loved HyunSeung more...

"A-a-annyeong....SuMin...imnida~" I said and bowed.

The came to me and huddled around. I looked toward my teacher and found him laughing and said that I could skip today's class. I put my guitar on the table and 2PM led me out.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"Somewhere..."Nickhun said and they dragged me faster. We were walking down the streets of Seoul...the lights were beautiful at night....

After awhile the let go of me and we just started walking...I didn't get to explore Seoul much...it's more beautiful than I thought...

"SuMin? That's your name right?" ChanSung asked.

"Yes...it is..." I said and just kept walking looking up at the starry night...

"We have a surprise for you..." JunSu said.

"What is it?" I asked and turned around.

All I saw was a flash of light and I closed my eyes...When I opened them back up..I saw a Banner that said, "Congratulations SuMin also HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!" and I looked around...What was I being congratulated for?

I looked all around me...I saw 4Minute...Joo...2AM ... 2PM, JYP, and all of those artists...why were they here?

"What is this for?" I asked. I felt tears coming to my eyes..I didn't know why.

Mr. Park came to me and said, "Congratulations...I decided to give you your own CD....and you debut...with BEAST's HyunSeung tomorrow..."

"I what...." I understood now...I was locked in the recording room recording 7 songs....that took forever...but..how did they get HyunSeung to...oh...I got it....they asked him to sing...and they recorded it from their side...and ...wow....why didn't I see this coming....

Just then I found BEAST in front of me...they all hugged me...and I hugged them back,...then...HyunSeung...he smelled like an ocean's breeze....I hugged him extra tight...making sure this wasn't a dream....

He almost kissed me...but he stopped and said, "7 years...you will be 21...and I 28...but age doesn't matter..." he then kissed me and I was shocked...I am 14.....or just turned 14...but...he is right...age doesn't matter....not after 20 hehehe

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7 YEARS LATER

May 21st

5:30pm

It seems like only yesterday....I was here...at this place...where I got congratulated....and HyunSeung kissed me..I am 21 now..and its my golden birthday..but I decided to spend it at my Book signing...My books over these past years have got a lot of attention...I have choreographed a lot of different songs along with HyunSeung and I flip flop between CUBE and JYPE for assistance. I got my work cut out for me.

Kids? No haha we don't plan on having kids yet...we are free for now..living our artist lives.

We became the LEGEND of KPOP....that sounds corny but it's true...

That story...the end...

thank you for reading~ :)